This part where we lose control after we take any alcohol into our body is very obvious. But what is not obvious to many people is, the subtle insanity that precedes that act. We override the resolution and succumb to that desire to take a drink or two. Go back to your own experience of trying to stop. Every time we started again, it was probably with a thought something like this. Here is what I will do this time.............. Mine was I will drink Micalob lite beers, its low in calories.....sometimes, It will be I will just drink 1 beer but then once I put something in my body, the fight is over. This experiment of stopping and starting again, went on for a while. Only after entering the fellowship of AA and reading the book AA, I saw this phrase "peculiar mental twist" throughout the book that precedes the act of drinking.