Welcome Worthy, I too had a lot of difficulty quitting drinking. I quit a number of times but always went back. Once I finally decided that it was not a temporary thing, that I had to quit for good, then I gathered lots of tools to take me through the tough times. You do need tools for support and for everyone it is different: AA, online support, books, blogs, exercise, meditation, rehab, your doctor etc etc. If it hasn't worked to date, you will need to change things up. It is difficult but it is possible and it is so worthwhile. If I can do it, so can you. Keep posting to let us know how you are doing.