So last night I had a conversation with my teenage daughter about an interaction I had with someone she admires many years ago when I was drunk. I had emailed this gal and reached out to see if we can be friends again and say sorry for putting that mess on her. I mentioned it to my daughter....she said, God! You drunk dialed her? (eye roll) Are you serious? I responded, I don't do that anymore...I'm not that person now and I haven't been for a year. I felt so bad. Wanted to go back in time and erase all the stupid, selfish things I did. I had gotten so used to being a good role model for my girl. I think I kind of forgot where I came from...This slapped me back into it...And made me ashamed of myself. And made me want to crawl away and just disappear. I think that might be a trigger...while I didn't feel like drinking at that time I think we decide to drink days before we actually do it. So, I thought it might be a good idea to come here and express it here in a positive way instead of acting out my disgust for myself right now. Thanks for listening. :-)
