My goodness.
I'm not feeling well today, so I'm in bed reading through this post.
I'm just amazed at how much I've changed since the origin of my writing here on this site. I came here afraid, ashamed, ridden with anxiety and anger, and I had no idea what to do or how to fix my situation. I read countless accounts of people on this forum saying how great their lives were now that they were sober, and that life was so much better without alcohol, and I thought... "Yeah, right." I really thought those statements were exaggerated and condescending to someone like me... in pain and scared.
Thanks to people on this site reaching out to me and providing me with great information I learned a lot about my own addictive mind, and some reasons behind why I behaved the way I did. I'm so grateful for the information and support provided by you all, and for encouraging me to stay my course, especially when I faltered, fell down, got mad, or swam in denial.
I've had ups and downs during my journey to get sober, and I'm sure I'll have many more. I have changed a lot, mostly by taking the time to be vulnerable with you all first, then gathering the strength from that to face my loved ones honestly and ask them to help me, too. With each sober step I take, I get more courage to move ahead and grow.
I'm excited to keep reading my story, and sharing it with you all. It's so heart warming hearing that I have inspired some people, especially those who have guided and supported me. To anyone reading this, please know that life can change once you decide to change it. It's not always easy, but you will discover how strong you really are, and in the process, learn some beautiful things about yourself.
This site has so much to offer someone looking for support, information, and advice on changing your relationship with alcohol. I can only hope that more people have the experience that I've had, and that this site keeps changing lives.
Many blessings to you all!