Dear Vannesa, I could of wrote this post myself, when I read it it sounded so much like how I am feeling and hurting, I get those medication thoughts not working too and I feel like I eat sleep and breathe my disorder, please do not feel like you are alone so many of us feel this way. I read the road to recovery has bumps and pitstops, some days are better than others, I often feel I will never feel better again, I have to remind myself I like this before 4 years ago and got better and am so hoping to again, I am sure tomm will be better. Let me know how you are doing. God bless, Debbie.