I guess my lonliness has to do alot about sex. I have been on a antidepresant for the last 5 years, and I am weaning of it veeeeery slowly, and I am at the end of my weaning. At the end of the mont I will be of pills, medication. I have been on all types of pills for the last 14 years. The anti depresant I was taking was Celexa 20mg It realy did save my life. One of the side effects is that your sex drive (labido) disappears. I had not sex drive what so ever, so I was content in being alone. Now that I am off the antidepresant, My libido has gone through the roof, and I mean through the roof. and I can not find a women to be with. Everyday is torture, and I mean torture. now that I am not drinking it is even worse. I am not medicating myself any more, and have to deal with all of this. The problem is, is that to find a relationship with someone will take alot of time. I am a impulsive, all or nothing kind of guy, but I am working on it. The reason in the past I use to slip, and relapse was Getting drunk only took 10 minutes to do. Walk to the corner store, and voila. I have delt with my lonliness, and lack of sex. Now I am sick, and tired of that routine it is not working for me anymore. It has worked for the past 35 years, but it is just not the same anymore. I want more out of my life. I want real companionship. Iguess I have to ACCEPT my position, and be very patient, VERY PATIENT, and hopefuly this will work themselves out naturaly. I am working on new activities to meet people, and to have new hobbies. It is either be patient, and get what I have been praying for. I fulfilled life, or go back to using, and be unhappy, and miserable, and lonely for the next 20 years again. It's my choice, and I am chosing to be happy and fulfilled.
