Thank you for that, hors controle. I too have hurt my children by being easily angry when I drink. I am deeply ashamed of this, but I like to pretend it won't happen again and then, of course, it does. And looking in the mirror after a night of drinking creates further shame; I head to work with puffy eyelids and a heavy, tired face. I want this stop more than anything. I know what the future will look like if I don't and it scares me to death.
Don't give up on your end. Try to go slow, day by day or even hour by hour. I feel like if we give ourselves a chance to know what even 30 days of sobriety looks like, we no longer have to deal with the feeling that we can't escape this. We can. Thanks for your honest post.
