Thanks for the all the good wishes.
Unfortunately I have some bad news... I got to my milestone that I was so focused on then caved in a few days later. I've had a week of drinking... not good. My analogy is a batman in cricket (I realize a lot of you don't follow cricket in your countries). Anyway, getting to a century is a big achievement and often the - professional - sportsmen get there and then lose concentration and get out a little later on 102/103 or 104 runs. I feel proud I got there. Three months is great. But a failure that I lost it so soon after.
Anyway... I've enrolled in a resort/retreat in Thailand that focuses on addictions and relationships. I'll stay there for about 5 weeks.
I know it's not the best plan, but I've given in to the bottle and I'll drink for the next few weeks then stop when I get to the retreat January 5th.
I wish I had a valid reason for giving in to share with this community, but I don't. I wasn't overly stressed at work, not depressed, not bored. Actually, to be honest it was one of my triggers. I was out with a girl and she was drinking and I guess I wanted to fit in... or maybe be on the 'same level' as her. It's funny that 'alcoholic switch' that goes off. Once it's triggered you convince yourself you 'need' that drink.
Anyway.. here I am. I wouldn't say back to square one as I've learned a lot over the last 100 days, but definitely a step backwards. I'm looking forward to this retreat to learn some valuable life skills and sober up.
Cheers
M.
