Lynn, I reached a point where I was sinking further and further in despair. I knew it was due to alcohol, yet I didn't want to give it up. Each time I thought of quitting, I would get such anxiety. But I was so tired of the daily habit/routine. I weighed the pros/cons. I remembered my life before alcohol. Also realized I been drinking to numb pain in my life. I researched the effects alcohol had on my body. I used to be such a health guru, yet I let myself go, BAD! I had to get real honest with myself. The first afternoon without alcohol, I was anxious and jittery. But I made some changes in my routine. I tried to not look at that stupid clock. I spent a lot of time on here reading. There is a wealth of information and inspiration on here. I would jump on here when i was feeling real anxious and read . Each day has gotten a little easier. I just kept telling myself I wanted my life back. Also, when my mind would try and rationalize as to why I needed/wanted alcohol, I would immediately work through that moment. I'm still working through moments. But I'm so proud of myself for each day I can say I'm AF. I've started eating healthy and exercising again. Although I'm still a newbie, I see light at the end of my tunnel. Best of luck today!! Hope this helped.
