Today is Sunday, and after a day in bed, I am feeling alive again. I have to leave
For the city today to catch a flight home tomorrow, where I will be faced
With a lot of drinkers in my family and friends and also
Explaining my problem with alcohol to people who will find my concern
Silly. This is because, well they are alcoholics themeselves and they see me
As such together human being, for the most
Part I am. Just way out of control with drinking.
I keep finding myslef imagining situations where I would be asked to drink and
Wish that I was going to say no because I simply don't want it when reality is I am probably really going to want it.
I mostly think about wine with my mom and aunts...wish I could handle the occasional glass. But, I have teied moderTion and it does not work for me I always end up abusing. I guess, once I get to a certain point in my sobriety it will seem pointless to even have just one,,,at least I hope I will see it that way.
Staying strong in my journey. So grateful for the site, I really never expected it to be so helpful especially so quickly.
Love and light to you all.
