Hi Royhobbs and welcome to this site. You'll find everyone is very supportive here and best of all, you will not be judged. I've been battling this addiction for about two months now, I have only gone as long as 6 days without alcohol. Today is day three, I'm trying again. You will find some great resources on this site and the forum is a great way to express yourself in complete anonymity. I am also a very private person and I find that even though I'm hiding behind my computer, I am still accountable to the people I have bonded with in this forum, and when I screw up, I tell them about it. Not only does it help to get the feelings of disappointment and guilt off my chest, I have people who will support me without making me feel worse about my mistakes. In fact they remind me of my many successes. I encourage you continue posting in the forum. Just take this journey one day at a time.