I have a PPE exam tomorrow (Professional Practice Exam).
This is a large thing, because if I pass this I can become a Certified Technologist, and then I have a higher chance getting into McMaster for a Bachelor of Technology. After I complete that, it could lead to a Masters degree and potential Ph.D. I understand it's a lot of work and my view is far in perspective.
For me personally I want to correct my own life, not that I'm an overly flawed human being, I want to get back onto the track I wanted to be on. I'm hard on myself, I know that, haha all of you do.
My potential has been so masked and hidden by insecurities, I've been sheltering myself..
A girl from work, I was talking to last night after a fun night of mini putt, she said you have a lot of trouble looking into girls eyes. I said yes, I've been hurt so much by them, I don't trust them or have any confidence in them. It was a nice reminder that I need to continue to build strength. It's true, I just think women are judging me and making fun of me, so I try not to make eye contact with them.