So the interview went great on Thursday. The manager of the dept I applied for was very impressed that I already have the system skills as well as the practical skills for the job. He said several to es throughout the interview that I wouldn't have any difficulty transitioning to their company with all the experience I have and that I have no need to be concerned about training because the person who retired from that job has signed a three month contract strictly for training. I left the interview feeling very positive and that I think I just may have this job. I won't know for sure for probably two weeks or maybe longer but ill keep you all posted. I still have one more interview this Wednesday but if I had to make a choice, I'd rather go to the place I just interviewed for on Thursday. It's a familiar industry and more secure I think.
Turquoise thank you for suggesting that I think about moments of pleasure. It may be very helpful. I have already decided that Monday I'm stopping again, no ifs, ands or buts about it. I need to do this for my health. I kick my butt everyday for being so stupid and weak by starting to smoke again. What the heck got into me? I wasn't even drinking when I started, so I can't use that as an excuse.
ElizabethRRRR you're doing great with moderation. In time you'll achieve your goal. I truly believe you have the strength and determination to be successful in wherever you want to be. We all have to work hard to reach our goals. Don't we all wish it was so much easier? That we could just snap our fingers and our addictions would be gone in an instant?
That's some interesting assignment you were given! I hope that thinking about what gives you pleasure also gives you pleasure. Appreciating the small things can make a world of a difference in how we feel.
Sounds like you are in a much better place and I hope it continues this way! How would you describe your emotional state? Do you feel as exhausted or more exhausted then a week ago?
Also, just wanted to wish you good luck for your interview on the 3rd!
Here is my latest homework assignment from my therapist. It doesn't take much time, but it does take a lot of self-awareness. I am trying to notice and record any moment that gives me pleasure, without any judgment allowed. Sometimes it's my daughter's laughter. Sometimes it's the sunset. Sometimes it's the fact that I accomplished my latest work deadline and now I get a couple of days off. And usually it IS that first sip of wine for the day. That is okay. The thing I'm noticing with all this is that often I don't really get any pleasure after the 4th or 5th sip. I think I keep taking sips because I'm "chasing" that moment of pleasure I had.
Anyway, I'm also learning a lot of other things about myself, as well as the alcohol/food binging thing. Camiol, you might think about this with your smoking....
Turquoise, I would be so happy to stop at half a bottle. You are my inspiration.
For several nights in a row, I have stopped just past the half way point. That's progress for me. I have been nursing a sick cat through the night as well as during the day. I can't afford to pay the animal hospital to dose her for me, plus I'm on vacation now, so I talked them into letting me do it myself. And it's working; she's getting better!
What I realize is that I have to want something more than another glass of wine. That's what works for me. I want the cat to be well. I want to feel good in the morning and remember what I did the night before. It's been two weeks now that I've been able to do that.
Camiol, I remember you have another interview coming up. That's why I looked in this morning, to see how you're feeling. So now you have two coming up? Fingers crossed! As for smoking, sounds like your head is in a good place to quit for good. You want something more than you want the cigarette. :)
Hi ElizabethRRRR I appreciate your compliment, thank you for that. I do try to remain positive, it's hard at times. This journey we are all on is a tough battle, but every little success is progress right? I'm struggling daily and I'm ashamed to tell all of you that after a year and a half, I stupidly started smoking again. I don't know why or what possessed me to start again. It's been about three weeks now. My daughter caught me last night and she was devastated. I MUST quit again, firstly for my health, second because she was so upset, and third, I don't want to start a new job as a smoker. On the job drop front, I am so excited because yesterday I finally got the call for the other job I applied for. I'm interviewing this Thursday morning. I have my other interview next week for the provincial government and I'm feeling pretty confident that one of them will be the job for me. I am qualified for both jobs and feel I have a good chance for either one. I'm not sure if any of you have faith in psychics but I saw one a month ago, she told me that I am going to have to make a choice between two offers and that I'm finally going to feel victorious. She also said I'm going to be very happy with the decision I make. She told me that I will have to sign a legal document....job offer? Anyway she told me all this without me even mentioning to her that I'm looking for a new job. Fingers crossed! I'm going to think positive and hope for the best.
So the first interview was not successful. Not in the fact that it didn't go well, but the job turned out to be very part time. I was a bit disappointed but I also had a very strong feeling that it wasn't going to be the job I am going to get. The HR manager was very nice and asked me to call her in August to see if any other jobs were available because she was impressed with my résumé. So that's that, my next interview is July 3 and I have a feeling it might be where I end up going.
Thanks Turquoise, I'm actually heading for my first interview in 45 minutes and getting a wee bit nervous. I hope it goes well.
I too am still drinking regularly but for the most part it's under control. Sunday I drank too much wine and woke up Monday morning ticked at myself but really I am doing so much better than I was a few months ago and I'm proud of myself for that. Turquoise I'm sorry you seem to be so overwhelmed. Is there something you can put aside for now so you can concentrate on yourself? I know it's hard to let some things go, but even temporarily might be a relief for you.
Well I must go get ready for the interview. I'll let you know how it goes.
Camiol, good luck with the job interview! I have been having a rough time. I WAY oversubscribed myself in the past 6 months, and I'm just plain burned out. I've been working an extra job on the side, when I was too busy to begin with. I started seeing a therapist a few weeks ago, and it's digging up some difficult stuff. I think it will help in the long run, but right now it's just emotional and draining... Anyway, I'm not getting drunk, but I'm drinking more than I would like to. Approximately 1/2 bottle of wine every day. It helps to have nothing else in the house...
Elizabeth, good luck with the exercising. It sounds like you and your husband are both struggling with these issues, yet focused on doing something about them. It's much the same with my husband and myself.
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