Monica, isn't it strange how people can be about drinking? The subject ranks up there with sex and politics and money. Go figure. Ain't nothing about moderation in how drinking is viewed by ANYONE, let alone how it's "performed" by us alcoholics. Weird, huh? I am so proud of you for tackling this, after what seems to be a long, rough road. Take it one day at a time, and stay proud of yourself each time you succeed in not getting drunk. We're all with you on this.