Hi Rusty! Hang in there! At least that's what my non-alcoholic friends say to me,but, try as they might, they don't really get it. Do you have friends like that? Anyway, I'm on this site for a reason, to find and to relate to other alcoholics. It's not easy, I have discovered, being an alcoholic and trying to live a life with no alcohol. I hope you are well, tomorrow is a new day. Remember that, even if your mind is cloudy, it's a new day. Sometimes, the sun is so bright in my eyes, in my own bedroom, that I could scream and I close the curtains. But, I'm learning that, even if my head aches or my heart, if I just say to myself, "it's a new day", I am okay. Good luck Rusty.