Hey Trista,
No problem, I appreciate yours too! This tour thing sounds like quite the bad situation. You need to decide for yourself if you can stay there, but whatever you choose to do I understand! I can totally get you on the nobody trusting you. I'm in the same boat and I feel like with time I may be able to regain at least one persons trust. You just have to make a pledge and refuse to hurt anymore. Let me know what you decide to do about the tour and let me know what you've been doing to stay clear of drinking.
Stay strong!
Ray