I am new to this website. I am preparing myself to quite smoking (2-3 cigarettes a day for past 2) on May 13, 2019, the day after Mother's Day. Although the health concerns from smoking 2.5 cigarettes a day exists, it is not my primary reason for quitting. Nor is it financial. I have just learned that I will be a grandmother to a second child in December of this year, my first grandchild just turned 2. I dearly do not want my grandchildren following my example. I (and my husband) never smoke in front of my first grandchild, but she is getting old enough to start asking why we need to "nip out" for a few minutes throughout the day. BTW none of my children smoke, and I know that my smoking worries them, and I don't like that either.
But I am going to miss it dearly. At different times in the day, my husband and I meet up in the backyard, share a cigarette and talk. And I'm not going to lie, I really really enjoy it. And I know that we could do this anyway, but we won't. We will have to find different ways of enjoying time together.
I have smoked off and on throughout my life (always about the same quantity) and honestly, I have never found it that tough to quit. But this time feels different. I enjoy it more than before, and I feel like I'm saying goodbye to a good friend. In the past 2 years, smoking has felt like I have been treating myself - giving myself something that I enjoy - and it's never felt like that before. I think that I'm going to find it tough.
I think the online support will be helpful for me.
Anyway, thanks for listening.
Pouvoir
