Yesterday, I reset my clock. I had a busy day planned. Soccer games and my niece's party, which was 2.5 hours away. I put my patch on in the AM. The first time I used it. It really did help with the cravings, even if I do believe it's more mental. When the thought comes in "I could use a smoke," I say, "You have nicotine running through your blood right now. You're not craving the drug; you're craving the habit." I think this makes a huge difference. I know I'm prolonging the nicotine withdraw, but I really think I have to approach this evil addiction from the mental aspects first. My mind has to know it's strong enough. And I have to break that habit before I pull it all out from under me. So....while cold turkey would've been preferred, I'm okay with patches. Whatever works.
So, we get home at 8. My friend is in town and at a local brewery that had their grand opening yesterday. That's about the worst place for a person on day 1, right. Yes. I hesitated, but I also knew I'd be with NON SMOKERS that know what I'm doing. So I went. I drank two delicious beers, sat with my friends and had a great time. I didn't step outside. I didn't come back in smelling of smoke. I honestly barely thought about it.
We did talk about it for a minute, but I said I would be fine. I stood up at one time to go to the restroom and my friend said, "Where do you think you're going" because she has my back. I'm not gonna lie; there was a part of me that wanted to stop on my way home, but I did not. I did not. :)
I know this was easier because 1) I was with my support team 2) I just had a couple beers in a non-smoking environment 3) I was determined and felt strong. I know I can't put myself in drinking situations without those elements. If I were drinking outside around smokers....wow...that'd be way tougher and I am NOT ready for that.
But it was great to know I COULD do it and STILL HAVE A GOOD TIME. I could laugh and talk and dance without the NASTY cigarette.
Today is Day 2. I feel strong. I feel committed. I am brushing off the cravings. It is different this quit and I am SO thankful. The road will have tough spots, but I can manage it.