I am so happy to hear that even though your husband was smoking, you didn't cave in. It's SOOOO hard, believe me, I'm right there with you. I live with three smokers: my husband and our two roommates. So I have to be around it all the time and resist the urge. Being the main support system is a heavy burden too. You don't have as many people to lean on, and you have to be their rock... it's stressful.
Are you using anything to help with the symptoms now that you're experiencing them? I'm on the patch, and actually also chewing nicotine gum as I write this (because it's lunch time and I usually smoke right now). The patch is so helpful. I don't get fuzzy blurry vision like I usually do, and I lose all ability to concentrate and focus when I'm going through withdrawal. The patch reduces it down to almost nothing. What I'm worried about is day 8. I tried quitting in March and got 8 days in. I woke up so unbelievably depressed, and I felt crappy, and I just needed all that to go away, so I smoked one cigarette, and then another, and then was right back to my normal habit. It was super disappointing. I think I'm prepared for the emotional side of it now, which I hadn't been anticipating. I was expecting to be crabby, but instead I got depressed, which is very weird for me. I'm a happy person. So this time I'm paying attention to my mood and taking steps to coach myself through the mental roller coaster.
You said it's hard for you today. I say, look at all the progress you've already made... starting all over from day 1 again won't be any fun. Try looking into some kind of nicotine replacement and keep on staying strong. We've got this.
Monique