Hi Everyone!
I just discovered this site and went through some of the basic set up of getting my Quit Program together. My Quit Date was Friday, but I screwed that all up by opening the last pack I had on hand and I just smoked the last one a few minutes ago. I am going to put on my first patch in a little while since they have worked for me before.
I have quit many, many times. Obviously unsuccessfully. I keep coming back. If you knew how many times I quit - and for the long periods I have been able to do it - you would think I was crazy for ever picking up this habit again, but I have. My smoking history is pretty insane.
I am 47 and I started when I was just 12. I smoked rather heavily even then - at least a half a pack then and got up to a pack and a half a day by age 20. I tried to quit many times.
At 20, I quit for 8 months.
At 29, I quit for 1 year and slipped for 4 months, but then I quit for 10 whole years!
At 40 I picked it up again and have been on and off (mostly on), but I quit again for 8 months about three years ago when I nearly died of pneumonia.
All my other attempts have been, 5 days, 1 month, 3 days, 2 weeks, etc.
So, my confidence level is very low that I can truly truly quit, because when I quit for those 10 years I didn't think I'd ever be back. I didn't use any non-smoking aids either and I wasn't exactly immediately ill. It was immense stress that brought me back to smoking at age 40. Both my parents died and I was fighting with my brother (my only sibling) about their care as they were dying. It was a stressful situation.
Now I have no excuses. But no huge motivation either. I just want to be done with it.
Thanks for reading and wish me luck.
