Hiya All.
For some strange reason what Ron is saying is almost exactly what I'm going through. I'm on my 111 day soon to hit 4 months :). Despite not getting too many cravings and finding things easier than expected the nicodemon is keeping me well aware of his presence this past week. No cravings I don't feel like smoking or really want to smoke but he is there I can really feel him, it's as if he's just waiting for poor John to let his guard down.
Well I have bad news for him. He is not going to win. I feel as Ron said that maybe I got a little bored with my quit. I used to rejoice many times a day for the first 2 months. I think I better start again because it's worth it. I hope to be getting a straight razor as a present soon and yes I will start rewarding myself more. I'm worth it, you all are worth it, ALL QUITTERS ARE WORTH IT....
It's strange how one can be so free and happy but at the sametimne so much in danger of relapsing, I guess that's a price addicts pay. Maybe it's canceled out by the power and selfsatisfaction we can tap into at any point but saying to ourselves "we beat it, we won". Anyway friends I'll be fine don't worry
John