Hi Litza,
I saw this at work in the morning, but I couldn't log on and respond. I'm sorry that you had a struggle today. I know that certain milestones seem to be triggers for some of us. I hope that it got easier as the day went on.
All that I can say is that this stuff seems to ebb and flow. I'm a few months ahead of you, and I still have my moments. Most days, I have no desire to smoke at all. But, according to the crave diary I'm still keeping, I have the urge about once every 3 days. On Sunday, I actually had two episodes in which I had to take some deep breaths. I do wish it were less by now. I know I had hoped that those desires would be down to once or twice a month by now.
On the other hand, I think it is easy to forget how far we have come. When I smoked, I had powerful craves that I gave in to about 20 times per day. The urges I have now are not that intense. Instead, it's more of a disenheartening feeling with this, "Oh, not again" thought. And I need to remember that, for the majority of days, I am experiencing something I didn't even think was possible less than a year ago: whole days with no thoughts of smoking.
I suspect you have had similar progress, and this day was just a snag. Please make sure to take inventory of how far you have come. To me, it suggests hope for more progress in the future.
