Hey jenny,
I hear ya. I just finished Day 6, and this has been a week from hell. I feel like I'm suffering a huge emotional hangover from every stress event this week. Today was a normal day off from work, and I ended up sleeping for over 12 hours. I'm OK with the sleeping right now. People sleep when they are recovering from an illness, and addiction is an illness. I will get better.
I also ended up behaving very meanly towards someone, and I'm not sure if it was due to some nicotine withdrawal, the "fact" that he's been irritating me, or both. I'm not OK with that part--me lashing out on people.
However, I am not willing to give up my quit at this point. I have invested a lot of time and energy in this. Been working towards it for months, one behavior at a time. So, if I'm a b-----, then I'm a b----. It is temporary. I hope I don't destroy some of the relationships I have with other people. But if I do, I do. I figure I'd lose some relationships to continued smoking and/ or my next quit attempt anyway. Might as well suck it up and deal it now, rather than having to start over later.
Hang in there, my friend. I hear it's a lot easier on "the other side."