What I really hate is that he cannot talk normally. He sees the words, but it takes him 5-10 seconds to say what he wants to say. The radiation is affecting the part of his brain that controls speech. The doctors say this is a temporary thing. I hope they are right. John is the smartest person I know. He is articulate. He can face the strongest debater, and win. But that was last week. Before he started radiation. I cry when he talks to me. He tells me not to be sad. If you are reading this, if you are still smoking, please quit today. Please don't put your loved ones through this. Trust me, this isn't fun.