Hello everybody,
today was beautiful weather here and I was lucky enough to spend a half an hour between meetings sitting in a sweet smelling rose garden.
And in spite of the beauty of it all, I felt the crave to smoke (trigger: break). So I did as I have trained myself these last 50 days: I got out my water, started chewing a stick of gum and got out my book and started reading.
And then it hit me: we are trying to replace smoking; We are substituting it. We are being coached to do so. We are keeping ourselves occupied (maybe this is some sort of ingrained learning mechanism: doing nothing, being idle is "bad"- and isn't smoking a wonderful way of not being "idle":-)). We are cleaning, running, eating, burning incense, drinking ice water or doing ANYTHING to fill the gap left by the cigarettes.
But what if this is wrong in a way? What if what we have to learn is to LET GO? To not do anything? To enjoy the moment of calm? To relax into the present moment and savour it?
Now, I'm not trying to be a guru here... I just want to say that I spat out my gum this afternoon, put away the book and the water bottle and all the other space and time filling substitutes- and just concentrated on the NOW, on the smell of the flowers and the sun on my face.
Maybe that's a way for me.
Cat
My Milage:My Quit Date: 4/14/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 51
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,020
Amount Saved: �234.60
Life Gained:Days: 4
Hrs: 2
Mins: 46
Seconds: 33
