Happy New Year to EVERYONE. The last 2 or 3 days I have really seemed to come up some. I have read your post love, help, support, several times everyday. It truly saved my quit and my sanity. There is no way I can thank you all enough for your kindness and helpfulness. When I went to the Dr. in Dec. he put me back on my thyroid and hormones, which I think has finally cleared up SOME not all of the fog like dream world I have been living in since my illness began last Sept. I have had several people IM me and ask what the entire story was. and I looked back and saw that I had posted just part of the things in several different posts, so have been toying with the idea  of putting them all together, but it would make a long post so not sure how some would feel about that? Not sure if I will try to put it all together.
Ros, your idea of breaking down my problems and handling each one separately into manageable size really
was a life saver. I tackled each one the way you broke it down for me. I was so fog headed and overwhelmed that I could not have figured my way out of a paper bag. I can not thank you enough for your wisdom and doing that for me. Mom know how I feel and I was able to put in non offensively. She smokes outside. Getting on my regular meds and some good vitamins are starting to help me strength wise, physically and mentally. Still a long way to go and not firing on all cylinders yet, but I am not sputtering as much either. lol  I am taking some anxiety meds which also helps the heart condition and some of the depression.
Kaiser, just knowing that you are there and that I am in your prayers have helped me so much. It is
a lot harder to give up your quit when you know you have some else depending on you too. I never realized
the value of a quit buddy, not even when I asked you. I can't tell you how many times I have had to think
again about smoking because of you!... How can I ever thank you enough quit buddy??
Sticken, your example and all  the posts of yours that I have read are truly an inspiration. THANK YOU for reminding me what I need to focus on and keeping my eye on the prize.
Karren, Henny Penny, both of you have been there from the beginning for me and have never missed a
celebration or a hard time. Your kind words I must admit surprised me. I never thot of myself as an inspiration or a "tough cookie", thank you. HP I do know CD would smack me upside the head. I do miss him terribly. Does anyone know what happened to him?
Rock, thanks for reminding me how much worse my medical problems could be and get and showing me the way and the reason to keep my quit. I too hope you have seen the last of your medical problems?
Jo aka Gogy Wog, Deep Breathing was helpful, and you are right about how long the relief would last
Miss Marple, I can always use hugs and prayers, thanks for helping to make me feel more comfortable
about posting my feelings and problems. That has got to be the hardest thing I have ever done, really.
I was just so desperate for help and do not want to smoke. It is not an option, NOPE
Moss, many of your posts have helped me much, so if you tell me not to feel foolish venting then I say
OK I won't. Seriously though you have no idea how much those words have helped me. I am not one to
even talk to friends about what is going on inside let a lone post on a board where complete strangers can
read, even though the regulars feel more like family.
Jim, we have had some im talks and I hope you know how much you mean to me. That long chat we had
really did me some good, and reminding me that I AM A NON SMOKER and 4000 not smoked. Thanks
Mr Q. Where are you? I have not heard from you, but then again I don't have the energy yet to read and
post as I was. Your trick has save me much further aggravation about losing posts. Your faith in me, well
I think that everyone's faith in my strength, which I did not at the time feel I has made the difference, cause I was able to pull myself up and out from somewhere. I hope you are OK?
Kelly I have read about everything you have posted. Your struggle, courage and trust in me is amazing.Thanks I truly enjoyed our IM today, I hop you know how I feel about you!!
Deb, you are right, not an option NOPE. This was a new Dr. and I like him, just scary when they don't know, but I would rather they say that then act like they do or worse act like it is nothing and you are crazy, I have had both those kind too. How is you medical condition. Circulatory I understand, but ambulation? As in not being able to walk, or is it a navigation problem. I am so dizzy I am all over the place. Is that what you mean? Thanks also for the prayers and the encouragement to post.
Jan, You are also one of my cheerleaders that have been there with me from the beginning. I have been having Lots and lots of rest this last month. Now it is time for posting, which I have way overdone on this one.
Tresa, definitely not last or least, You are my hero and I want to grow up to be a great quitter and helper
the way you are. All these years and still here helping people. You know I love you to death. "And your little dog too"  hee hee.
It is so good to be doing better, if only  some. The rest will come, I hope, some people never fully come back after the kind of seizure I had. I do not even remember the 4 days in the hospital. Maybe 1/2 of the 3rd, most of the 4th. I think anyway. lol Thanks so much for caring and letting me vent.
Love you all so much,

Pupikat