Dear Sparky, I hope you are still around to read this. My computer would not let me get on line AGAIN. (so Cybrduke I humbly accept your offer?). Anyway, do you remember when I first came to this site and was so scared to quit smoking? You really helped me out a lot, you really did. You were encouraging, sympathetic to my health conditions. I am so confused I just do not understand. I loved this site from the beginning. It seemed more like a huge extended family really getting together for the single purpose of helping each member of the family overcome any and all obstacles in the way. Everyone coming up with their best to help someone else overcome the latest challenge. I feel like I just lost a member of the family and it hurts. I just do not understand Sparky why, when you tell so many others to come here BEFORE they smoke and post, why did you not do it? I took a huge painful leap of faith and trusting that in the end all the pain would be worth the outcome. I am sitting here with skin lesions on my hands, legs, arms, face, neck, stomach, back, head, so far. That was one of the problems I had and asked about when I first came here.When I get nervous or upset these lesions break out because of a skin disease. I am NOT blaming anyone for this disease, lest there be any kind of misunderstanding. I am just saying that I believed you and the others that I would eventually get over this and it would not last forever. These are so painful I can't even begin to describe it, and I quit smoking anyway KNOWING this would happen to me, but with the knowledge it would indeed get better. The last large outbreak I had lasted for 22 years, varying degrees, but...You are one of the people Sparky that told me that. So are you now telling me that it does not get better? Are you saying I am going to be stuck in a viscous cycle of this crap because it does not get better? Is there really no hope? I don't want to be stuck like this, I can't be. I don't remember your post before you smoked the first one. Did you come here and post first like you have told so many before to do? I am not trying to make you feel bad, or worse. I am just trying to understand and figure out what I need to do for myself, so I am not stuck with these horrible flesh eating, out of control, blistering disease.
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/30/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 15
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 420
Amount Saved: $110.25
Life Gained:Days: 1
Hrs: 18
Mins: 29
Seconds: 17
