Hi Theresa,
Your post reminded me of a post I once started early into my quit. I just couldn't feel comfortable trying to "pretend" I was a non smoker, when in fact I was feeling quite the opposite. I felt like a phony, trying to be something I wasn't. I didn't know how to shake it so I was fighting with myself every day. I thought I was the only person feeling this way and that just maybe I was one of those people you hear about that was destined to be a smoker for the rest of my life. I just wanted to go back into my comfort zone. You know, it takes time to undo all that you've been putting your body through for all those years and it may feel a bit foreign to you, but you ARE doing excellent. You're right, we are our own worst enemy, and sometimes we lose sight of who we really are. We are non smokers, regardless of what this addiction tries to make us feel. You're a beautiful person with hopes, dreams, and the desire to live a long healthy and happy life. YOU have the power from within yourself. Grab onto it. You're doing a great job!