I've been plunking along here but feel like I am going downhill.
Maybe a better analogy is that I seem to be frozen in place.
Frozen solid. I just can't get it together.
I started off my quit with great enthusiasm and made it through the first month just great. Gung Ho! Found this site around the 3 week mark. I remember making it to 30days and feeling so proud of myself. I remember the reward I bought and still makes me happy to see it.
That was about the last happy time I remember.
I feel like a fog settled in around day 55. I can't concentrate, no work is getting done. I have no joy for my work - a job that used to be my joy.
I barely slog through it. My husband used to call me a "dynamo" but now I can hardly get up in the morning to head off to the flea market. Used to be, I could hardly sleep for my excitement to get there first.... ahead of the competition. Now I walk around there like I could care less. In a total fog. Can't concentrate. Can't think.
The work I do also completely changed around that time so I've just been waiting for the other shoe to drop which has been major, major stress. Do I take on the challenge? No, I just stare at my computer screen.
I feel like this has been going on for the last 50days. Normal? How long are most people depressed after quitting? I'm eating waaaaaaaay too much. Seriously too much. Not sleeping well due to a second major stress issue that came in about a month ago. I'm getting a wake up call from Mr. Stress at 330AM every morning, used to be I could sleep like a rock. All seems like classic depressive stuff but does it ever go away? Asking if this is some temporary symptom of quitting ? Or is this what I really am? Is something wrong with me or is this common? Has anyone been through this?
This is around my 108 day mark but I only went off the patches at day 90. A little longer than most but I had to do it to maintain sanity as learned from a quit a few years ago. Up until day 55 or so, this was the easiest quit ever for me.
Thanks everyone.. I admire everyone on this site for their great determination!
My Milage:My Quit Date: 4/1/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 108
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 2,592
Amount Saved: $622.08
Life Gained:Days: 13
Hrs: 6
Mins: 3
Seconds: 26