Posted a while back that I had started Paxil, and yes, I have to admit that it is helping. However, my Dr. put me on it to get me off of Lorazepam, which is what I've been using for panic attacks and just plain old out-right fear that I feel in the pit of my stomach (fear of what? wish I knew, because there's no rhyme nor reason to it; it happens when nothing particularily stressful is happening)
So my problem? For the past month I've been drinking to numb that fear. Up until now, I've hardly ever drank - maybe 4 times a year. Now, honestly, every day.
Here's what scared the heck out of me. Twice now, I've decided that enough is enough - I've got a little boy to raise - I don't want him to grow up with a drunk of a mother. Guess what happened? Can you believe - withdrawl symptoms! Nervousness, mucsle spasms, horrible dizzy spells, insomnia for days and days at a time. AFTER ONLY A MONTH OF DRINKING, AND NOT EVERY DAY!
I'm so, so scared! I feel that I was doing much less damage to myself on the Lorazepam, but I'm scared to tell my Dr. about the drinking, because then she may just write me off as an addict, and not give me more Lorazepam.
I'm a wreck. I'm so scared! I don't want to drink anymore, but I'm scared of withdrawl.
PLEASE, ANY ADVICE FROM ANYONE APPRECIATED!![font=Impact]Text[/font]
