Thanks Josie, I am feeling a little better. I came home and took a Clonazapam, laid on the bed and said NO NO NO, get up and move it!! So I did, my dr. appt isn't until June 2 so I need to keep truckin until then. So I guess everybody is going to get some real ups and downs from me at least until then, who knows, I may be crazy the rest of my life!!! I was probably even crazier when I smoked, I just didn't notice it as much!!
My hubby isn't home yet, thats why I am still able to post...Its kinda fun, I can rarely do this from home.
Kelly
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 12/6/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 154 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,620 Amount Saved: $577.50 Life Gained: Days: 12 Hrs: 14 Mins: 7 Seconds: 41
You have come so far, so keep this close and pass that gas station. Try working with your doctor to come up with a plan that is right for you and your body. How about introducing some sort of fun exercise or class after dinner or work? This way you can relax and regroup at the same time. Stay strong, we are here for you :)
I feel like I may be making my own diary here, but now I did laundry and got dinner started. I am really trying to get "distracted" without sleeping or laying down. It seemed like when I smoked I could survive on less than 5 hours of sleep a day and smoked my way through the rest. Maybe this is good, I am getting my feelings down, I have not written in my own journal in a few months now. I will now go and unload and reload the dishwasher. (oh, and I fed all the animals first thing, they always come first, no matter how bad I feel)
Kelly
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 12/6/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 154 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,620 Amount Saved: $577.50 Life Gained: Days: 12 Hrs: 14 Mins: 5 Seconds: 57
I made it home, I did not stop, I cried the whole way. My son has a school concert tonight that I will need to make it through, this could be good or bad. I will go for it being a good distraction.
Kelly
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 12/6/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 154 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,620 Amount Saved: $577.50 Life Gained: Days: 12 Hrs: 14 Mins: 3 Seconds: 19
I don't know whats going on today, or if I will even still be at work when I get any responses, but I have had to stop myself
from going to the gas station three times today to buy cigs. I don't know why it is so strong today. I don't know If I can make it. I run to the bathroom here at work and cry, it gets a little better, then bam, it hits me again and the junkie has come up with some pretty good ones today let me tell you. My husband and I have been arguing because all I do is sleep away my craves and he says I need to work through them. I make it through work then go home and lay down...I am not very productive. I hate today..I feel like I am starting for the first time...AGAIN!! Then I take all of the drugs to calm me down and I walk around like a zombie. Sorry, I needed to vent..I still need to make it past the gas station on my way home without stopping.
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 12/6/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 154 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,620 Amount Saved: $577.50 Life Gained: Days: 12 Hrs: 13 Mins: 58 Seconds: 52
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