First, I have to admit that I have relapsed. Again! For those of you who know me, I am embarrassed to admit that I have failed again. I honestly don't know how many times I have tried this. It simply is not working. I have many reasons, or I should say excuses. None of them justify lighting up. But, so be it. It is what it is.
I am not looking for advise, motivation, or support right now. I have received so much from everyone here and I still have started smoking again. There were times when I was so confident I would have swore I'd never start again. I actually made it up to about three months...I think. But, then, something always happens and I lose it all. Christmas, vacation, a birthday...etc, etc. Like I said, I have many excuses.
I would like to say thank you to the New Year No Nics, as I was a part of that group for a while. And before that, the Octobreathers. Sometimes I think of what my quit meter would look like if I stuck with it since October last year, when I was doing really good for a while. All I have to do is look at my buddies, Goofy and Sprquits. If you guys are reading this, THANK YOU so much for everything! I wish you both all the best. I don't know if you realize how much impact you had on my quit, but I have to tell you that you helped me the most. I am sad to let you know that I am smoking again. :(
I may come back to re-visit the site, when I feel ready again. I may not. Right now I need to take a step back and re-evaluate.
Your friend,
Karen.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/14/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 88
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,056
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $359.04
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52
