N2, really what is that all about? When I smoked it consumed every thought, how I hated myself for doing it, I mean every moment from waking to sleeping. It consumed me, all I wanted was to be a non smoker, I prayed, I read I did everything. Now here I am, I guess a non smoker with that little something pushing at me, like I am missing something. I know that is completely ridiculous because this is what I wanted more than anything. Maybe it is still the junkie, I need to battle with him a little longer, tell him I lived 15 years smoke free just fine, smoked for 20, and now I am back to what I first was...go away junkie, I don't need you anymore. Happy thoughts..that is what gets me through..dwell on happy thoughts. :) That and this site, I would not have made it through days 35-50 without this site, no way in heck. Yesterday I reported having this great day, and it was for half of it, then stuff happened and it went down the tubes...trickling over til today. I have taken my anxiety meds, I hate taking them, but its better than smoking I guess. One step at a time. My son is really ill with the influenza viris, fever of 105 for days, strep throat, ear infections and he is home by himself, I can't get off work. It is stressing me out, but he is a little better today. I am a nervous Nelly mom...anxiety, my BIGGEST TRIGGER EVER, AND MY BIGGEST PROBLEM!! What a murphys law on that. Its my daughters 15th birthday today also..I worry about EVERYTHING!!! I am having a rambling day..sorry. My boss is gone and I feel like I have more time. I worry about getting sick (which right now either you get the stomach flu or the influenza viris, WI has been HIT)I am sure the rest of you have too. This is the biggest smoking "season" for me. I am taking it one day at a time, waiting for my day...it will come. YIKES, now I sound phycho..sorry.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 104
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,120
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $390.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9