I was so relieved to read this tonight. I'm at 66 days and had one HELL of a day... can I say hell? ;-). And yesterday wasn't so hot either. I feel like I did in week 3... I feel like strangling something.. (not really, but that's the best way to describe it). It's kind of like having an itch all over that I cannot scratch.. just constantly ANNOYED! Gees, I hate this feeling.. I don't want to smoke, but I want to NOT feel like this. My energy is better than it was for awhile, but still low. I want to sleep more. My gums bleed often (I normally have very healthy teeth and gums), I'm often depressed, I know I should exercise but I have no energy. I exercised all the time when I smoked.. I know that is wierd, but generally I did 60 to 90 minutes on the eliptical with 45 minutes of wieghts 3 to 4 times a week. Now I get home and drop. I'm going to try getting up early and working out to see if I can manage to fit it in then, because now I'm beat at night. I do have some good news.. When I quit smoking I realized how much I hate my job, so I'm interviewing for a BIG job, I made it through the first two rounds of interviews, have a phone interview Monday and another onsite the following Tuesday. I keep thinking I have GOT to get my mood in check! But hey, keep moving forward, right? I actually was feeling pretty good for the last couple of weeks and then BAM! It hit me again yesterday and today. I cannot believe that quiting is so hard. I think we should be able to have 30 days off in rehab with the rest of the junkies ;-)!!! I cannot believe how hard it is to get my motivation back up. I'm work full time, go to school full time and I'm a single Mom. Believe me, when I slow down, I FEEL it. If I drink anymore expresso I think I'll drop dead or something! Anyway Colleen, you are not alone. I know it will get better because we managed to get through week 3. And.. there are people on this board who quit a year ago and they seem "normal" ;-)
Gees, you can tell I haven't posted in a while.. vent, vent, whine, whine.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 67
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,011
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $469
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6
