Well, I wasn't going to say anything but I was thinking Feb 9th is a ways away. Why not make it sooner? I think part of the problem may be that because you have cut so far back, you are in a state of constant withdrawal. Seems to me that would be torturous. I think you could save yourself a couple really challenging weeks by going ahead and moving up your quit date. You have been preparing for a long time and you simply haven't committed. What are you waiting for? Just commit. :)
As far as not being able to concentrate, that probably is due to a couple things. First of all, lack of concentration is a normal side effect of quitting. Since you are smoking so little, you are experiencing w/d just as if you had quit completely. I was a space case for at least two weeks and even now don't always feel quite right (okay, that could just be me but for sure the first couple weeks it's normal. ;)) Resentment is also very common based on what I've read here. Someone else might be able to add more about that.
You know, there is no way around the discomfort of quitting. It has to be experienced. It sucks sometimes, it can be painful, it can be really difficult, but it has to be experienced. Good news, though. It ends! The other good news, it's only as bad as you allow it to be. It's hard to say goodbye to smoking. It's been a huge part of our lives and it's something we've come to depend on but it's a lie. Unfortunately, it takes quitting to really experience that knowledge.
I'm really sorry about Shane! I hope he comfortable and I hope he's not too scared. I will keep praying for him, his family and his friends. Big hugs, Ter. I love you.
:)
ps. so much for not lecturing. ;p
pps. thanks for all the kind words, guys. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/25/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 153
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,590
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $895.05
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2