Well, that worked! As I said on Friday morning, the fantastic show of support and great advice was enough to get me through the day. I kept my promise - I didn't smoke, I used lots of the coping techniques I read in your posts, and I rewarded myself with a bottle of vintage Champagne after work last night (cheers, Deck!).
Alohakeia, you said "look at this situation as a gift..a chance to learn new ways of dealing with stressful situations...". Well, I tried my hardest to do this yesterday morning, and looking back 24 hours later, I realize that last week *was* a gift. The "stupidly stressful situation" I'd got myself into sorted itself out spectacularly well just after lunch, and once I'd banished the the thought that I could smoke a cigarette to celebrate (easy!), I took a bit of time to think about what I'd learned from the experience.
One thing is this - if stress is a trigger, then try your hardest to avoid putting yourself under any stress during the early stages of your quit.
Anna, Unhooked, and Tresa - you all pointed out that a cigarette wasn't going to do a damn thing to help the situation I was in. You're right, as we all know, but it DOES help to keep this constantly in mind when you're dealing with stress. Every time the urge became unbearable, I repeated to myself "a cigarette isn't going to make this problem go away - it's just going to give you one MORE problem to worry about, and that's the last thing you need right now".
Sparky and Frosty - "If I can make it through this I can make it through anything". "Don't smoke, if you do the demon wins again". Well, I made it through week 3, I've learned from the mistake of putting myself under needless stress, and the next time I AM under stress, I'll know that if I beat it in week three, there's no reason on earth I should lose in week 6. I didn't smoke, the demon lost, and that leaves me stronger and the demon weaker.
Sue in NC - "Review your quit reasons, keep them where you used to keep your smokes, laminate them and put them in that pocket..." I didn't have time Friday morning between reading your most and going to work, so what I DID do was this: I took a few minutes every hour or so to mentally focus on WHY I've chosen to no longer smoke. Great advice.
Den, MJ - yep, it IS going to get easier, isn't it? All we have to do is have a great eday today without smoking, and tomorrow will be even easier.
Sylvie - writing is good therapy. I haven't been doing a quit diary, but just sitting down and putting thoughts to paper helps enormously. Writing posts to SSC or scribbling ideas on the back of an envelope helps focus the mind.
Deck - tha's TWO deals I've got - ou ad Den. If you don't, I won't. Nice to know I'm not the only anglophone January '08 quitter living in France coping with stress.
Alohakeia - a little bit of pleasure DOES help. OK, I couldn't find a hell of a lot to laugh about first thing Friday morning, but I did try to spend a bit of time relaxing and joking around with colleagues later on.
As a smoker, I'd leave the desk every hour or so, announcing "off for a cig- back in 5". Friday, every so often I'd leave, saying "I'm off to not smoke for a bit - see you later", and I'd go for a walk round the block, breathing deeply.
Which reminds me...
JDK - you're right, of course. Stress is always a question of perception, I think. Whatever you're worried about, you can probably say - "What's the WORST that can happen? Well, whatever it is, it hasn't happened yet, and, even if it does, it's not the end of the world".
Thanks again, everyone. I'll be away for three weeks starting next Tuesday, but I'll be back early February, and I'll be a non-smoker. That's a promise.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/1/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 18
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 360
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �95.40
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43