Hey Alohakeia. Never did figure out why I was crashing today. I think tha I am trying to learn how to deal with stresses, even small ones, without auotmatically lighting up for a few moments of 'clarity'. I just need to learn that stress does not go away when I light up, it is only masked. I have been using smoking as my escape for 18 years (wo) and hard to learn new methods of coping.
I thought the "Junkie Thinking" post was incredible. Two that hit close to home:
JUNKIE THINKING: "I miss smoking right now."
RESPONSE: "Of course I miss something I've been doing every day for most of my life. But do I miss the chest pain right now? Do I miss the worry, the embarrassment? I'd rather be an ex-smoker with an occasional desire to smoke, than a smoker with a constant desire to stop doing it."
JUNKIE THINKING: "I really need to smoke now, I'm so upset."
RESPONSE: "Smoking is not going to fix anything. I'll still be upset, I'll just be an upset smoker. I never have to have a cigarette. Smoking is not a need; it's a want. Once the crisis is over, I'll be relieved and grateful I'm still not smoking."
When I get the junkie moment, I try to realize all I am gaining instead of losing...
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/2/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 5
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 75
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $30.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20