[b]In violent and chaotic times such as these, our only chance for survival lies in creating our own little islands of sanity and order, in making little havens of our homes. - Susan Kaufman[/b]
A lot of lessons have been learned during my quit. Perspective was among the most difficult. Another difficult concept that took me the better part of a year to understand was that I am ok just the way I am. Sure we all need to constantly be aware of areas of improvement. That isn't what I'm talking about here. I'm talking about core values. Who I am deep inside.
The saying above, [b]creating our own little islands of sanity and order[/b] was something I felt guilty for doing but it was necessary for my quit survival. On the island I created were the tools I needed. The SSC, quit buddies, emails and phone calls, and the necessities.
I had to let go of a lot of things in order to survive. Things like bitterness (which I was really good at holding on to), unhealthy relationships, and the need to strive to be the very best. Day after day situations came up that I had to learn how to cope with, put behind me and move forward.
This is all part of the quit process. Some just quit smoking and move on with life. I wasn't one of those fortunate people. I had to learn how to live life without the crutch of smoking. Emotionaly it was probably the hardest thing I've ever done but I wanted to quit smoking. I no longer wanted to be controlled by the cigarette. There were other things in life I wanted to experience and enjoy and smoking was standing in my way.
Create your island of sanity, take your coping tools with you, get through the early days five minutes at a time, refuse to allow the nicodemon on your island, and when you are ready you will begin to build your bridge to the outside world again. One step at a time, one day at a time, remembering NOPE (not one puff ever). That is how we survive.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 817
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 16,340
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,859.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 73 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 51 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26