Hey, blue cloud. Thanks for the congrats. You look awesome! Look at you go and remember how unsure you were when you first got here? You didn't know if you could quit & weren't even sure you wanted to & now you have 48 freakin' gorgeous smoke-free days!
Lady's post about the emotional aspects of quitting and the fact that addiction stunts our emotional development was bang on.
Trauma can also do that, so a person with multiple addictions who also suffered some emotional trauma when young may be at several different stages of development, yet still functioning as a grown-up. It takes a great deal of courage, desire and heart to start growing up as a grown up and it can be very frightening to face our naked feelings without our crutch.
We are brave people and we share our courage and strength, blue cloud, so we never have to be afraid.
For me, the best way to deal with the emotional part of my quit has been the same way I've dealt with the rest of it. Stay positive, always keep in mind the gift I've given myself. I recognize when it's the 13 year old talking the same as I recognize the junkie. But while the junkie never gets what she wants, I try to give the 13 year old what she wants so she can go ahead & grow up. If she's lonely, I get her some company, if she's silly, I let her play. I hope I'm making some kind of sense here.
The most important thing is don't get ahead of yourself, blue cloud. One day at a time for all of it. For the smoking, the emotions, the growing up, the learning. It's all an amazing experience!
Keep it up, you are doing just wonderfully and we are so proud of you!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 100
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,000
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,100.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25