I'm having a huge setback now.
I've had a panic disorder since the birth of my second child 18 years ago. It been under control off and on with the help of meds and therapy. I've had horrible panic attacks in the bathroom and have a terrible "shy bowel" and a paranoia about being "watched".
Needless to say, I've done okay, but 8 months ago my oldest son died suddenly. My world was thrown to pieces and my panic attacks have come back full swing. Paranoia plagues me. The meds I've used before (very small dose) aren't working now and the Dr. says to increase the med (Xanax) I'm scared to for fear of dependancy, but I have to do something.
I've had some grief counseling, but it doesn't deal with the PA's and phobia's.
I'm just so overwhelmed and so scared that I'll get myself back into a horrible cycle again. I have 4 younger children to take care off and to help with their grief.
Maybe I just need some encourage and someone to tell me that I will get this under control.....that this is just a "transition" or something. I'm not new to this, so I don't know why I'm freaking out so much.
