Reflections are interesting. Today is my 63rd birthday. I have been thinking about this quit and this last year and what has taken place.
A year ago I had stopped smoking. I wanted to be quit by my 62nd birthday. Made it a couple weeks or so, then smoked. September 8th I quit again. That lasted a short time too. Then there were a couple more attempts and more relapses.
During that time I met Gonna and Windy and Jan. I met Phil, who in turn introduced to me to Cheermom. In that time I also met Penguin and Ter24. Oh, yes there is Kate from Greece, my first SSC buddy. Then there is Rusty. She has been so much strength for me. Then I met Marie. Why do I mention these people? The one constant during this last year has been these wonderful people. No matter how many times I messed up they were there to help me back on my feet. Also SSC and the wonderful people there were and still continue to me a source of strength for me.
Now we are into winter and more attempts. One actually lasted six weeks. Thought I could do it, but again I smoked. Reason, weight, I could not stand it. Funny thing, looking though the journals I keep, my weight is still about the same give or take a 2 or 3 pounds. So there were a couple more failed attempts.
Now we come to April 30, 2007, my final quit date. This is the longest I have ever been quit. I cannot nor will I lose this quit. Why? I don�t have another one left in me. I never ever want to go though another quit. Some of my quits were mostly for family issues. I would put the patch on when I was around my daughter and her children. Didn�t want her to know I had failed again. As soon as she was gone so was my quit. I got honest with her and now I don�t have to worry, because I have stopped for ME. Other quits were to be supportive of others, that didn�t work either. What I have learned and knew, a quit will not happen unless you and only you want it. I WANT THIS QUIT!!!
Sorry this is so long, but it was something I have been thinking about most of the day and wanted to put it out there. SSC thank you for being here for me and for all the others that have benefited from your site.
Keep the Quit
Sparky
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]4/30/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 95
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 950
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $285.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59