Hi blue cloud, we should just have a crying party today cuz I know exactly how you're feeling. I've been crying all morning. It sucks! But mine is more from heartache than missing being a smoker but then at the same time the junkie in my head has been telling me to start smoking again to help me get through my heartache.
But yesterday when Lady was talking me home past all the gas stations, she said to just conquer both things at the same time.
All I know is I'm still really sad & still smoke-free. I know that cig's really won't change my situation and I'll still be sad. Just like if I got back together with my boyfriend. The situation wouldn't change & I'd still be sad. So no matter how I look at it, no matter what I do, the saddness is here to stay for awhile. It sucks!
So blue cloud no matter what the reason is for being sad isn't the point but the point as I see it is that it's still about growing up emotionally. It's hard to let ourselves feel bad. Nobody likes to feel pain :(
But we are not our feelings. Feelings come and go through us constantly. The way we handle/ re-act to our feelings shows our character. This is a hard one for me but it's true, at least the way I see it through my eyes :)
Hang in there with me blue cloud. I don't know if I'm gonna make it or not, this quit, but if you give up it will give more power to the junkie in my head.
I think it's ok for kids to see us cry. Then maybe someday they won't be trying to quit smoking.
Just breathe.......
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/7/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 25
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 500
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $120.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
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$28,008.00
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Days: 612
Hours: 21
Minutes: 44
Seconds: 20
Life Gained
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4668
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93,360
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