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if any of us when we smoked could go back to the moment before we ever started smoking and say no, would we all not do so?
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That's an interesting question. At first thought, I undoubtedly said "Yes, I'd change the past and say 'NO!!!'" But after thinking about it for a second, I'm not sure. That's such a hard question to answer, really.
So many of my memories are tied to smoking. Now, it's easy to say that I could have had those memories with non-smokers, but the reality is that it wouldn't have been the same. I did share bonds with my smoking friends because we were all shunned by society together. We were all outcasts, who understood each other. The countless nights I sat on my porch with my former roommate, pondering life's greatest questions, all while feeding our addictions... those nights wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been a smoker. Sure, it's easy to say that I COULD have sat on the porch with her and had those discussions without smoking, but the fact is that that probably wouldn't have happened. Then, I think about my other former roommate and close friend who I wouldn't be friends with at all if it weren't for smoking. Neither of us smoke now, but it was smoking that made us become friends in the first place. She was in 2 of my classes in college and when we were headed out of one of our classes, she was starting to light up and I said, "hey! Can I have one? (I'd been quit for 10 months at the time) She, of course, said yes and we became very close friends, and are still friends today.
So would I change the past and not become a smoker? I just don't know. I'm very glad that smoking is a part of my past, but those are also memories that I would hate to never have had. No, I don't miss smoking and I don't want to EVER be a smoker again... but I can't say that I didn't enjoy smoking or that smoking didn't do some positive things like help me make friends. It's not something I want in my future... but it's not something I would change from my past either.
Crave the Quit!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/17/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 761
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 19,025
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,142.93
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 53 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55