EllieMae
You are among friends here, I think you know that. I hear your anquish and understand your sense of betrayal. Having said that I also hear that you have the one ingredient that will see you through. You have hope. Believe in that, even if it is as small as a particle of light. This is where change begins.
Nurture your hope with kindness toward yourself. Soon that particle of light will become a wave and that wave will kindle your desire and willingness to acknowledge the weakness in ourselves. And when you have done this, you will have the tools to fight our shared addiction. It is truly in the nurturing of the smallest of hopes that the grandest of dreams become manifest.
There will come a time when your wave of light will become a lightning bolt that will illuminate your world and allow you to grant the greatest gift of all. Forgiveness.
That time is clearly not now, however, you have been hurt to your very core and it is time to be about healing. By mastering this addiction you are making a very powerful statement about who and what you are. Go ahead now and begin to make it better. There are alot of folks here who will help you along the way
nonic
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/25/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 160
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,800
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,120.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 29 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
