I've been doing so well. Today is the beginning of my 7th day - and I've been working out (every day since quitting) and drinking tea and chewing the nicorette gum. And then this morning, I thought I'd join my mate for a cup of coffee - as even though I stopped drinking coffee since my quit, I still like making it for him. I thought maybe I could drink a small cup too. And I made it and I sipped it and oh lord....it was like it triggered something crazy in me. After those couple sips - ALL I could think about was smoking. He had to leave in 20 minutes and all I could think was "just go, please go" because I did have 3 cigarettes in a pack hidden that I figured I'd keep just to show myself that I could keep cigarettes and not smoke them (which I now admit was total bull***t reasoning)
So, I got angry with myself for having kept the 3 cigarettes but figured, well, now I have them and one of - to smoke ONE - what's the big deal? - it's not even the brand of cigarettes I ever liked. And as soon as his car had left the driveway I immediately went to my 3 cigarette stash and pulled one out - walked down the stairs to the kitchen where I was going to have to light it on the stove because I've thrown away all the matches - and I got there and I stood there telling myself it was no big deal but still feeling REALLY bad and without thinking I just walked into the bathroom and flushed the thing down the toilet. Then I went and got TWO pieces of gum and chewed them and have been on this site for a half hour reminding myself of all the reasons I quit smoking and how happy I am that I DON'T SMOKE. In fact, I'd better go throw out those two other cigarettes right now so that this situation doesn't repeat itself.
Ok, they're gone now. Boy, that was a REALLY close one. So glad to have this site here. Helps put things back in perspective.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/22/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 6
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 65
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $18
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 31 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53
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Quit Meter
$684,270.00
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 5349
Hours: 8
Minutes: 41
Seconds: 13
Life Gained
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45618
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
912,360
Cigarettes Not Smoked