Like others have already said, reading all of these postings my heart goes out to all of you because I can relate to everything that everyone has said. I have struggled with panic disorder since I was 11, and I am 21 now. Last year it got to where I just couldn't handle it on my own anymore. I went into the doctor, and she prescribed me prozac and xanax. I got the lowest dosages possible and it was a battle to take the prozac let me tell you. I never did take the xanax. The prozac did help me at that time, and after a few months I went off of it. Now, my anxiety, obessiveness, and derealization is FULL FORCE. I have always been TERRIFIED to take any sort of pill. I monitor my body like crazy if i even take an ibuprofin. Any time I feel anything unusual, I am on the internet, on the phone, or flipping through books trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Well not too long ago, I ate a lot of pineapple. Afterwards my tongue started to feel like it was being stabbed with needles. I told my mom, and she said, I hope your not having an allergic reaction to it. WELL, this set me into absolute PANIC. I called the hospital and they said to come in if my tongue was swelling or my throat was closing. I was panicking so hard that I couldn't tell if it was or not. I drove to the ER and just sat outside to see if anything serious happened. Well, the prickling went away, but now I am absolutely even more panicky about taking meds, and eating foods, especially foods that are highly allergitic to some people-seafood, strawberries and peanuts (all fo which I love). WEll I have been battleing this, and it feels like its getting pretty out of control, so I went to my dr. and she gave me prozac again. Same dosage even. Despite taking it in the past, I am terrified. This time, I did have side effects and an allergic reaction, which has dramatically increased my panic!!! I am on no meds now, but have made an appt. with a therapist, and am hoping to do this a more natural way. I am sorry this got so long, I just wanted to share my story because I know it helps me to read all of yours!!!!
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