This has been a very hard weekend but my husband was away on business all week right through the weekend and I believed that was what it was all about and I still think that but last night I had a nightmare that I smoked! The dream went like this...I was sitting at a table which was cluttered talking to someone and took a cigarette out of a pack which were laying on the table near me and lit it up, my husband looked at me in shock and I looked at the cigarette in my hand and then my gaze went to my daughter who was crying because I was smoking, I tried to explain it away that I didn't even realize I had lit a cigarette or was smoking...end of dream.
Well, the dream made me realize that at any time I could falter and what I dreamed could actually happen if I don't keep my guard up, but damn I'm tired of constantly fighting this even though I don't want a cigarette, they stink horrible when I smell them and it's disgusting to walk by the coats on the way back from break at work to smell the cigarette smoke lingering on the coats from the smokers. I won't give in but some days it's so hard, I just hate fighting this all the time it never seems to get better; oh yea for a short time then it's back again. Anyway I needed to vent! Thanks for having a place for me to vent!
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[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/25/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 81
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,787
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $283.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 40