I stopped using the patches 3 days ago. It seems like the Demon is dancing on my head....very insistent. My confidence was taking a kicking, I was getting scared, I thought I wanted to give up.
Fortunately, having 2 months under my belt gave me some moments of clarity, and I was able to put a stop to the unrelenting hijacking of my thoughts yesterday. As I watched my little guy stuggle to get up the toboggan hill, I realized that I had already made the commitment....to him...and to myself. I came home and reread the Rookery from the beginning and reaffirmed my commitment. I have made the right decision. I do want to be free. I will do what I have done for the past 2 months....give the nicodemon no attention.
Had a smoking dream last night. Was smoking as many as I could, as fast as I could it seemed. I was ashamed of myself for giving up. Excellent timing I think.
Gonna stay close for awhile.
Has anyone seen my shotgun driver...she seems to be MIA?
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/10/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 67
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,348
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $770.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 22
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$331,870.95
Amount Saved
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Days: 6053
Hours: 15
Minutes: 34
Seconds: 16
Life Gained
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45618
Smoke Free Days
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684,270
Cigarettes Not Smoked