Gilthanas,
I`m not from Aus, but I have had the exact same mindset. I think I have just started to come out from under that cloud somewhat, and what has worked for me is to focus more on my activity and not my inactivity.
I was just biding my time before doctor`s appointments, I realized, because I hadn`t been giving myself enough credit for my own insights and knowing what is in my best interests. Being tired physically and mentally can rob you of that confidence. You obviously have a good sense of what is happening to you and what you want/need to change.
I have just started cognitive-behavioral therapy, and it gives me more of a sense of direction and purpose than simply chatting about what worries me and being handed meds. I now keep track of when I take my meds., what my sleeping patterns are, etc. I`m just beginning to improve keeping tabs on my anxious behavior (i.e. what I am thinking and when), my diet, and the amount of activity or inactivity which is both helpful and counterproductive for me.
Things do get better as you go along, just don`t bite off more than you can chew at one time.
Best wishes to you!
