Gosh, just look at all this support! At least you know you're in the right place. :)
Hmm, let's see, celebrities that have died from tobacco related illnesses: John Candy, George Harrison, Jerry Garcia, Johnny Carson, and the list goes on. They're not invincible. They lie to themselves just like we do. Jennifer Anniston could be diagnosed tomorrow and wouldn't that be an eye opener for a lot of people?
You know, materialgirl, I didn't "want" to stop smoking and when those withdrawals kicked in (which is why you're feeling this way), it was worse. We know we need to quit smoking but that "want to" ...well, very simply... not all of us have it. For me, it was more like a "need to". I just woke up one day and decided to give it a shot to see if I could do it.
We've lied to ourselves for years while we smoked. We kept telling ourselves things like, "I'm young, I have plenty of time", "She smoked most of her life and she's ok", etc. etc. But in reality, we smokers KNOW we're killing our bodies and that we've become the outcasts of society. I mean c'mon, that little cough is NOT caused by "allergies". These are the lies we tell ourselves as smokers so that we can continue to feed our addictions without facing the truth that we really could be it's next victim.
So, since I lied so well to myself as a smoker...I figured, why not lie to myself as an ex-smoker? I told myself a I would return to smoking... when I turned 80. "For today, I will not smoke, but by george, at 80 I'm going to smoke like a blazing freight train". That "forever" thing I had going on in my mind was eased and somewhere along the way (I'm not sure when) I found my "want to" to remain quit. I also learned that what started out as a lie to myself turned out to be a truth. I CAN smoke all I want at 80...I can even smoke all I want to right now... but that desire just isn't there anymore ... (however, the "eating all I want when I turn 80" ... I'm keeping!).
When you're 80, you can smoke all you want, but for now, just hang on. Go ahead, work through this and satisfy your curiosity. See what being an ex-smoker is like. It'll take some time and effort...but then again, you have until you're 80 to get a good feel for it. :)
Welcome to the SSC!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Dat
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$18,683.67
Amount Saved
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Days: 690
Hours: 0
Minutes: 1
Seconds: 36
Life Gained
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4803
Smoke Free Days
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96,060
Cigarettes Not Smoked
